Yup, the title of this post pretty much explains it all. I can't actually say that I know what I am going to be telling you at this point, so here we go...
So there is this song we are singing in A Capella called "How Can I Keep from Singing?" and I super love it. I love the musical-ness of it, but the lyrics are what really hit home. The lyrics are as follows (for the most part. This is actually the original poem with editing by myself) :
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- My life goes on in endless song:
- Above earth's lamentation,
- I [hear] the [real], tho' far-off hymn
- That hails a new creation.
- Through all the tumult and the strife
- I hear the music ringing;
- It [sounds] an echo in my soul--
- How can I keep from singing?
- When tyrants tremble, sick with fear,
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- And hear their death-knell ringing,
- When friends rejoice both far and near,
- How can I keep from singing?
- In prison cell and dungeon vile,
- Our thoughts to them go winging;
- When friends by shame are undefiled,
- How can I keep from singing?
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- What [if] my joys and comforts die?
- [I know that truth is living];
- What tho' the darkness [round me calls]?
- [Still truth it's light is giving].
- No storm can shake my inmost calm,
- While to that [rock I'm] clinging;
- Since [Love] is Lord of heaven and earth,
- How can I keep from singing?
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- I lift my eyes; the cloud grows thin;
- I see the blue above it;
- And day by day this pathway smooths,
- Since first I learned to love it.
- The peace of [Love] makes fresh my heart,
- [a song of hope is bringing];
- All things are mine since [truth I've found]--
- How can I keep from singing?
This song pretty much fills my whole soul with joy, and I feel this song is so applicable to me. I am having a pretty rough time in my life right now, wondering what I am going to do in Snowflake and whatnot, but I know if I trust in God that He will make my pathway smooth if I trust in Him and have faith that what I am doing is what He wants and is the best for me. And the peace of His love overwhelms my whole being every day.
A lot of times in our lives, something unexpected comes our way that we don't understand. We feel as if there is so much grief and pain and hatred in the world today that life is near impossible to handle, but it is those griefs and disappointments that help us to appreciate the things in our life that are good. God wants us to know that He loves us, and I think that's why He sends trials our way, so that we know He wants us to come to Him and to learn and grow in our time on earth.
Good song that one is! But it is really two a.m. and I am unbelievably tired, and I can't sleep because all of my thoughts are running through my head at 500 mph.
So tonight I was watching this show, called Coming Home or something like that. It's this super cool show about soldiers returning home to their families from war and I just love it! And I also had a realization: no matter what under any circumstances, if there is a soldier and their child watches them return I will most definitely end up crying. I promise you, every single time one of those came up I cried like a little baby. I think it's because I am so moved by the sacrifices that these people make to serve our country, even if it means not seeing their kids for months, or years, at a time. So hats off to the men and women that protect our country, you are truly loved and appreciated! May God bless you!
Another thing on my mind: wow, how am I going to live? It turns out, money DOES NOT grow on trees. And I am a poor college student, needing a new camera, and now, much to my dismay, am living in Snowflake for who knows how long...
I was originally going to live in the valley for at least the summer then try to attend college for another semester AT LEAST. But I have been trying to find places to live and jobs in the valley, and nothing is coming up at all, so of course I take it to the Lord. Well, turns out He has other plans for me! He says, "Snowflake is where you are suppose to be..."
WHAT??? That was exactly what I DIDN'T want to hear. I have been trying to get out of Snowflake ever since I was in High School pretty much! Don't get me wrong, Snowflake is awesome, but I need a break. But guess what? Nope. One year is apparently suppose to be enough of a break. I don't know what I am going to do here, but the Lord knows what He is doing. He just decided to throw me a little curve ball there, and hopefully I can (in all of my human weakness) realize His plan for me and hit a home run.
So, now that I have unloaded into cyberspace, I bid you all
Goodnight!
Have you ever gotten the chills why you are just thinking? Yeah, so I was thinking about it and I get chills about so many things....
Staring off into space chills:
These are the chills you get for absolutely no reason. You stare off into space and a minute or two later, BAM! Chills.
I miss you chills:
These are the chills you get when you miss someone with all of your heart, and it makes you want to cry when you think about the person, but instead you take a deep breath and there you are, getting the I miss you chills. See also Sad music chills.
Sad music chills:
These are the chills you get when you are listening to sad music and the realization of how applicable the song is to your life at the moment, and voila. Chills.
I am hungry and I want that chills:
You know when you crave something so bad that you just imagine the savory taste in your mouth feeling? I get that feeling, and then I get these type of chills. I imagine these are the type of chills I will get when I want to kiss my husband. Just kidding, that's weird! ...
That must have hurt chills:
Have you ever witnessed someone in excruciating pain? I get these chills when that happens.
Wow! (feeling the spirit) chills:
Yeah, enough said.
Pure happiness chills:
There are moments in my life when my life is totally awesome and I just love being where I am, and I am so grateful for what I have. These are the moments when I get these type of chills.
You know those days when you are just sad and you don't know why? Yup, having one of those days.
It makes you wonder why sometimes you feel like that. You never feel like you can say "Just because I am," because I believe there is a reason for everything that happens. So I am sitting here at my apartment, all by myself, trying to figure out what on earth is wrong with me... and I also decided to let everyone know about it. Yay me. Not like anyone reads this anyway right?
I am pretty sure I have a different favorite song every week. This week, it happens to be My Love by Sara Bareilles. The lyrics are beautiful, as well as the music.
He bends his breath around my name And I am humbled I feel small and plain But his arms are angels by his side You need not ask if they're open, just how wide His lips are day And his skin is night And with our love we conjure up the twilight His fingers are music to my soul And I feel his song play everywhere I go My love, my love is on his way I can't wait to see the day I thankfully lay me down My love, my love is on his way I'm waiting patiently But if you see me now My love, please hurry He loves with rhythm And paints with flame He comes in pieces with no name I won't need answers, I'll just know Cause I've read the sonnets about his soul He can be ordinary in the best ways And still dance like a poet Through every word he says My love, my love is on his way I can't wait to see the day I thankfully Lay me down My love, my love is on his way I'm waiting patiently But if you see me now My love, please hurry All that I never knew Can you see me now All that I never said Can you see me now He makes me crazy He makes me cruel But I pray he makes me anything But a fool My love Please hurry.I love that song so so so much! You should go look it up on YouTube for sure.
Yup, for surely one of those days...
My Love, Please Hurry...
